.Friday, June 5, 2009 @ 2:10 PM Y
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Why why why...
Why does that stupid novel remind me of him,
Why does that name keep on appearing on that book,
Why does that author choose that name.
I am trying all my best to not remember
cos it will be a very bad thing if i
were to continue.
But when i thought i have totally forgotten
about him.
Something will just remind me of him.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
I am in pain can any one feel it.
Once i heard before that if one is crying there are 4 different types:- the one that cry out loud
- the one that cry but wif no tears
- the one who is crying but no sound
- the one who is crying but show no sign as that person is tearing in the heart
This is the different types. The 1st type seek for relief, the 2nd seek for attention for comfort, the 3rd is tryin to be strong but can no longer contain in & the last one is in pain all but him/herself but does not shown it as they have find it useless in cryin hence cryin inside.
I am crying and is the 3rd type the pain that i have over things cannot be contain inside anymore. I am cryin when typin this out as i find it very true.
Hope there is someone who can help me in forgetting instead of puutin salt on the wound and tearing it up again.
Yesterday did a quiz in facebook abt wad are u hidding!
Wow it was totally true haha.
I nvr blame ur but it was me who dunno wad ur r saying.
Nvm ......
Holiday lesson goin to end in a wk time,
shit lah haven't sign report book,
then my dad like havin high hope on me saying that i will go JC.
I scared to show him now.
More worse i want to go on 11 of june to see my bro go in, but got holiday lesson.
Hiax on stuck in the middle.
My Heart is in pain and saddness now.
Cos recently i can't slp well,
hope it will change.
