.Thursday, November 12, 2009 @ 9:44 PM Y
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Yesterday 11/11
Papers over, Card make ...
Feeling nothing no happiness ....
Today...
Went back to saizeriya for job interview somewad secure my place there but hope for better as in other jobs...
Discussion wif mum regarding contact lens ... feel really bad though i know me being stubborn and wanting contact make her upset but if i promise her not to make it i would then feel sad.
Being place in a difficult position really make me upset. I know if anything were to be happening to my eyes when i wear contact her heart will break but if i demolish the think of wanting i have i would regret it . I know she is protecting me but i do want to break out and be responsible sometime. Y are things so hard. Y isn't there an easily way out. I dun wan to break her heart and i know i can't give her any promise that nothing will happen. I so upset now. Y y am i so stubborn...
