.Tuesday, January 19, 2010 @ 12:28 PM Y
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Wow a few more days and i will be on my first trip (takin a plane) to overseas *Yippee
Here i come...
YesterdayI went to my frens hse!!! Its an attack of the dog day ...I just want to get a cup of water and then i was attack by all three of her dog ... (big kind kay)Wow they like using their front paw to scratch me ... while they are findin support. Tryin to stand on me ... T.T They want to lick me but my expose part (hands) was not near their reach ...Finnally when one of my hand was near they all wanted to licked it and hence causing my hand to be scratch T.T it was rather painful ...The experience too was rather scary . I bet no one would like to be attack by 3 dogs all tgt ...I dun really blame the dogs lol cos i think they just want to comfort me...B4 goin in to get a cup of water ... i was playin wif they( behind the half cage door)Lookin into thier innocent puppy eyes make me think of sad moment that i have tried real hard to surpress in me ... Then my tears just flow out unknowingly... the dogs kind of saw it ... then they were like looking at me and waitin there quietly...I felt that the dogs have sense my feeling ... they are tryin to give me comfort though thr wrong ways...It kind of sad to feel that way that no one cares for you ...When u kind of hopin ppl to pay at least some attention to you, no one does it...It is really kind of sad and lonely that way ...Prehaps its my life ...I always thought that at least i am a neutral fren to many and at least they will like care for me for a moment in split sec but i was totally worng ...I was a nobody to anyone...No one really cares isn't it... It really make me felt really lonely...Wad a life i lead ... Seems like a failure to me ...T.TOnce i heard ppl who cry out loud is tryin to gain notice but not really sad...Then ppl who sob in silence are really sad and dun want to let others know or worried...Ppl who are really sad are thosse to the extend that they bleed in their hearts and tears would really be surpress down in their hearts and sometime they just tears unknowingly cos they can't surpress the overflowin tears anymore...T.TI felt i belong to the bleeding in my heart of sobbing in silence ones...Such sad...
